I never ask for love 
But I search for it everywhere I go 

Quiet suffering, endless want, shameful desire 

I say I never want a piece of cake, afraid to bother anyone,
To bother you
I watch the dinner and swallow down the words 

Back home, dark and empty 
I clutch my chest 
Weeping like a wounded beast 

Too much space but not enough to fit in 
Ribcage exploding 
Salty tracks on freckled skin 

When my hair is all faded and the green in my eyes will be dulled 
All that will be left is the blue I painted myself with 

I never ask for love 
But I look for it everywhere I go

Never ask but always hope 
Never far, always close 
Never fucking enough 

Grasp at straws like they’re the stars 
Wait for someone to notice me in the corner 
I won’t ask, I won’t tell 

Keep my mouth shut, keep the secret
Not fit for it, no use fighting it
 
Look for it, wait for it
Look after me not at me
Close your eyes, I’ll close the door

Lick my wounds and scratch the skin 
You’re a golden hour and I’m an icy ring 

I don’t ever ask for love,
But I’ll look everywhere you went 

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A little bit about the author :

Name : Istara

Pronouns : they/them

Age : 19

Location : France

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