I hated myself for so long I forgot how I loved my friends
Veins popping off my arms, death newlywed.
But in this cracking twilight zone,
Where dew settles and is yet to sparkle
And empty stag eyes stop for dawn to uncover the crime,
I linger, blind
And look for sunshine in droplet form.
I wait for tan lines
I wait for summer to fall

It hurts like hell to sing through rattled breath
And to get back to so many important texts.
I'm drowning in new love
I'm shredding the thickest of transparent veils.
And I get to be hurt and I get to be bold

One word of advice:
There are craters in the moon to grieve
And fresh wounds in your friend's belly to mend.
There are mountains to move but they all have feet
And bone-crushing heartbreak to have ice-cream with.
There are tear-sized holes in my best friend's knees
And a giggle so bright we'll choke once it reaches our lips.

And I'll forget the blue of my veins,
The crooked rib I almost gave back.

Life will be scorching hot.
On top of the world,
We'll sit on discolored carpets.
In a desert of ashes
We'll sip on magma drinks
And eat lava cakes

I will ache so much that I can't possibly break

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A little bit about the author :

Name : Ella

Pronouns : she/her

Age : 24

Location : Italy

My hobbies consist of: giving titles to phases of life, killing 0 birds with a thousand stones, assigning colours to people, testing my neighbours’ patience, offering harmonica sound effects during serious conversations + a lot of words, a lot of numbers and a lot of screeching

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